PANN.NATE POST, BY LJH, 2015.06.24
English translation. Sent anonymously to HelpLeeJungHee
The wish of a mother without power.
Hello everyone..
I am Lee Jung Hee. I am very thankful to all of you.
I am really grateful that you listened to me and you showed love to us..
When I was 22 years old I was sexually assaulted by my husband and only later I found out that I got pregnant.
I was really scared and frightened to tell anyone so I told to my husband who was in USA that time. He said calmly to search for his third older sister and I went to search for his sister who was the same church member.
His sister took me that day to one of Obstetrics and Gynecology clinic and...asked/forced me to an abortion.
Similarly, at that time too I didn’t know anything, and I was too scared to say to anyone. I only thought that I have to get married because I lost my innocence.
From the beginning it was a wedding against my will.
After this, it was the start of our marriage.
I left both my sons in USA and I came to Korea, and I received the guests… My husband slowly scared me and made me do everything like I did. He is a person who gave us drugs and has threatened us and made us lie by force, I said only what he wanted us to say and he is someone who even has secret recordings.
I am shouting out (=crying out her pain) to everyone after escaping from the person who gave them goosebumps and told the sons to not go to school and live while doing that with him (the father) . Although it was a sound that nobody would hear, but I am grateful and I get courage because yesterday everyone listened to me. I will fight until the end.
My older son looks fine on the outside but he has a lot of anger inside (of his heart) and because of the shock and wound of the painful rape he is now in the hospital.
At first he was in the Hanyang Hospital and received all medical consultation and psychological tests, and got treatment for almost 3-4 months. Because the hospital was exposed, we changed the hospital fast.
It was very difficult and tough circumstances, but near my heart that thought to do it precisely (the child’s diagnosis) was nobody and I prepared hard while he was hospitalized in the university’s hospital. (I think she wanted to say that she hospitalized the child there while she prepared hard to fight back the husband; she explains here that she wanted to give all the help she can to the child – considering all the shock and pain he received).
The younger child also lived in the dark while being scared of the adults from the gloomy environment.
I am shouting out loud that I hate living like that again after I left the house and saw the world, and learned for the first time what freedom means.
Because he couldn’t say faster what he wanted to say when he testified the sexual assault and he wants to live and spend time with children of the same age, he is learning more and more Korean and how to write essays by himself. Even so, he is doing good. (means he is improving).
It was so good that he was the interpreter at the first testimony.
Today we uploaded a video on YouTube.
We want to let the world (everybody) know the truth.
It is the truth of the children who were sexually abused by their father and their grandfather, abused by the family members of their mother, and who were the sex slaves of all their father’s friends who came with him home.
It happened now to speak after they grew up living like that while the children couldn’t even express themselves.
I am not crazy and I feel sorry and grateful to my sons who lived like that.
I will live while paying back to them (the children) until I will die.
But because all these are my fault please punish me. Instead please save my children.
The children have no fault. They lived really pitifully.
Even if only now, please help them live so they can see the sky.
This is the last wish of a mother without power.
Hello everyone..
I am Lee Jung Hee. I am very thankful to all of you.
I am really grateful that you listened to me and you showed love to us..
When I was 22 years old I was sexually assaulted by my husband and only later I found out that I got pregnant.
I was really scared and frightened to tell anyone so I told to my husband who was in USA that time. He said calmly to search for his third older sister and I went to search for his sister who was the same church member.
His sister took me that day to one of Obstetrics and Gynecology clinic and...asked/forced me to an abortion.
Similarly, at that time too I didn’t know anything, and I was too scared to say to anyone. I only thought that I have to get married because I lost my innocence.
From the beginning it was a wedding against my will.
After this, it was the start of our marriage.
I left both my sons in USA and I came to Korea, and I received the guests… My husband slowly scared me and made me do everything like I did. He is a person who gave us drugs and has threatened us and made us lie by force, I said only what he wanted us to say and he is someone who even has secret recordings.
I am shouting out (=crying out her pain) to everyone after escaping from the person who gave them goosebumps and told the sons to not go to school and live while doing that with him (the father) . Although it was a sound that nobody would hear, but I am grateful and I get courage because yesterday everyone listened to me. I will fight until the end.
My older son looks fine on the outside but he has a lot of anger inside (of his heart) and because of the shock and wound of the painful rape he is now in the hospital.
At first he was in the Hanyang Hospital and received all medical consultation and psychological tests, and got treatment for almost 3-4 months. Because the hospital was exposed, we changed the hospital fast.
It was very difficult and tough circumstances, but near my heart that thought to do it precisely (the child’s diagnosis) was nobody and I prepared hard while he was hospitalized in the university’s hospital. (I think she wanted to say that she hospitalized the child there while she prepared hard to fight back the husband; she explains here that she wanted to give all the help she can to the child – considering all the shock and pain he received).
The younger child also lived in the dark while being scared of the adults from the gloomy environment.
I am shouting out loud that I hate living like that again after I left the house and saw the world, and learned for the first time what freedom means.
Because he couldn’t say faster what he wanted to say when he testified the sexual assault and he wants to live and spend time with children of the same age, he is learning more and more Korean and how to write essays by himself. Even so, he is doing good. (means he is improving).
It was so good that he was the interpreter at the first testimony.
Today we uploaded a video on YouTube.
We want to let the world (everybody) know the truth.
It is the truth of the children who were sexually abused by their father and their grandfather, abused by the family members of their mother, and who were the sex slaves of all their father’s friends who came with him home.
It happened now to speak after they grew up living like that while the children couldn’t even express themselves.
I am not crazy and I feel sorry and grateful to my sons who lived like that.
I will live while paying back to them (the children) until I will die.
But because all these are my fault please punish me. Instead please save my children.
The children have no fault. They lived really pitifully.
Even if only now, please help them live so they can see the sky.
This is the last wish of a mother without power.